Because there was some Lymph node involvement I had to undergo a full body CAT scan and a Bone scan to rule out any metastatic cancer. Diagnosis: No Metastasis. But because of the Tumor size and its growth habit, It was necessary to take the strongest Chemo and more often to try and shrink it for better results pre-surgery and radiation.
The drugs kill not only the bad cells in the body but the good cells and wreak havoc in the organs in your body.I had to have a MUGA Scan to determine if my heart was strong enough to withstand the drug that can damage my heart down the road or even during therapy - which is why the test as well as the others will be repeated during my days with Cancer.
The Chemo also wreaks havoc on the physical body that can be seen with the naked eye. Hair Loss...fingernail loss...the way you walk because of the bone pain...
I did not cry when I heard the Dr.say "You have Cancer. We'll have to wait for the biopsy results to determine what kind it is and then we'll start Chemo." I did not cry when I knew would lose my hair but I knew I had a long road ahead of me.
I am working on My Cancer Blog.I may not get online everyday because I may feel worse on some days than others. But I do keep a journal with me so I can keep track of my trials and the oh so many blessings I have received and continue receive everyday - and my thoughts for that day.
I will be getting Up Close and Personal. Why I am here with Cancer and why I should not be here with Cancer. At Least not this way...
Yesterday- Monday... I did break down and cry right after my Chemo. My Team Nurse said my Hair would be coming out on Thursday! THAT MAKES MY CANCER SO VERY REAL!!!
